The waiting game is over. I keep asking myself to calm down when disappointment comes but it's hard. I'm glad I chose to do this blog because it helps ME and if it helps me, it's possible it is helping others.
So to those dealing with these issues... what do YOU do when you are disappointed? For me... I'm silent. I cry. I cry until I sleep it off. It helps me. Silence helps me, tears HELP me.
Then comes the next stage... music.
Have you ever heard this song? It's "Her Diamonds" by Rob Thomas and it's about how he feels when his wife is "down" due to her illness and in a way it reminds me of my husband. He is going through this too. Not physically, but with me none-the-less.
After I'm done being silent and listening to music... I pray. And usually it's more like a conversation between God and I - but still prayer. And then I feel better. And then I feel re-assured ... and then I just feel in my heart that this isn't it for me... there will be a baby for us. How? I don't know. I just know God will provide.
Psalm 39:7 --> "But now Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in YOU."