Sunday, May 30, 2010

Psalm 27:14

'Wait on the LORD;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the LORD!'
Psalm 27:14

It seems like waiting is quite possibly one of thee most frustrating things someone has to do when in my situation (re: infertility). I am one of those people, yes THOSE people who likes to have answers immediately. I mean, why not? Hungry? There's a Drive Thru right there. Need money? Swipe your card at the ATM and voila! Got a question? Hello, Google!

I've been thinking a lot about the blessings in my life and the blessings to come.

I am blessed to have amazing relationships.

My marriage is strong. My husband, my rock.

My family is the definition of love.

My friends are amazing.

My co-workers are awesome.

My relationship with God is much better now than it has been in years.

I'm blessed with so many wonderful gifts.

Sometimes I feel guilty (yes, you read that right).

Here I am in a great marriage, making good money, having great family and friends and despite the infertility issues - I'm in relatively good health.

Who am I to want more?

But I know in my heart that God is calling me to be a mother.

I know it.

It's not just a biological desire. It's a feeling God has blessed me with.

I'm not ashamed to say I need help with waiting on the Lord.

Definitely not ashamed. He knows I'm impatient and longing.

He knows my desires (He gave them to me!)

I just need to trust in HIM and HIS time.

We'll get there.

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